Admiring Grace

I like leaving my radio on when I’m not home. Coming home to singing just makes me smile. The right song at the right time can change a whole day. That happened today. I came home because I was so tired of school. Just being there was draining me. Seeing the same people I see every Tuesday – I just wanted to run and hide away. I ran home. As I walked into my room Matthew West was pleading, “Show me how to love the unlovable Show me how to reach the unreachable Help me now to do the impossible” My head tilted and I just stared at the numbers on my radio thinking they would help clear out my thoughts, explain the mess in my brain. I am unlovable. Maybe not to everyone, but to someone. There are lots of people that I have to pray to love well, to have patience for, ask forgiveness for bad thoughts. I hadn’t really considered that that person is me to someone else. Before repentance, that was me to God. All He could see where my imperfections. My lack of righteo

My roommates left for Thanksgiving. It meant I got to spend time working on some research papers I’ve been putting off. Be impressed, I actually made progress. The first night was pretty lame though. I did absolutely nothing to further my homework goals. I did, however, make a delicious dinner and have too much dessert. I then spent some quality time with Facebook and music. Lots and lots of music. Before I turned off the tunes for the night, a chorus echoed through my room: “Who’d like to know, I’d like to know. Author of the moment, can you tell me, do I end up, do I end up happy? Do I? Not going to lie, it was a pretty lonely evening. Not having the roommates around to catch my thoughts and throw them back. Do I have to know how things end up? I would really like to know. Most days. Then again, this mystery has created some magic that my knowledge would have destroyed. In general, I like to know things: how things work, where something goes, what a word means, how s

Cause I want to be with you but I need a place to start I'm surrounded and captured by the armies of your heart I’m in such an odd place. Again. I read two articles yesterday about Guarding Your Heart . I really liked them. I shared them on my social media sites. Now I think I need to add my thoughts to the authors’ thinking to avoid confusion of my personal views. They said don’t guard your heart. They said love people without bounds. They said you will get hurt. They said it is so worth it. They said it’s what Jesus did. I agree. However. People are stupid. Love is so ultimately important because God is love . We have been commanded to love others whether we want to or not. These authors don’t want people to fear loving, because God doesn’t. He loves without bounds. He does get hurt. He says it’s worth it. We’re to live in love. I will never disagree with that. My concern comes with the type of love. Romantic love is not the same as friend/family l